“Do not dwell in the past, do not dream of the future, concentrate the mind on the present moment.” – Buddha
I’m going to spend some time today expounding on my Zen Buddhist beliefs. My interest in Buddhism is very much in the beginning stages, I have read only a handful of books on the subject. I realize for anyone who has been following zen for a long time that I might come off as ignorant, but please bear with me here, I am a work in progress. I do go to the zendo, but have fallen off in recent months.
How I got into Zen Buddhism:
It was all by chance, really.
I was reading Eckhart Tolle’s The Power of Now and he speaks a great deal about living in the present moment. I had been talking to a friend who told me that is a basic tenet of Buddhist philosophy. She suggested that I also look into meditation.
A couple of months later, I felt like my life was in shambles. My job sucked, I wasn’t making any money, and I was angry all of the time because I had no women in my life. I felt like a waste.
My anger wasn’t going away so I figured I would try out meditation, which I had heard relieves stress. After doing some research about meditation groups in the city, I found out there was one not too far from my house. This meditation group met at a zendo and practiced in the soto zen tradition.
“What the hell is that?” I said to myself.
Being the obsessive researcher that I am, I read all I could about Soto Zen and it’s differences from Rinzai and even the differences between different forms of Buddhism. I listened to Zen Mind Beginners Mind at work and my interest was peaked.
I decided it was time to contact these people at the zendo.
I called them up, and the guy gave me a lesson on how to sit. Then we sat for 30 minutes of zazen, walked around for another 10 minutes (kinhin), then sat for another 30. Afterwards, we read from a chapter of the Transmission of Light, which I didn’t gain too much from.
I did gain a certain calm from meditation that day. I believe that sitting in a dimly lit area staring at a wall for 30 minutes tends to do that. Or maybe it drives you crazy.
That’s the thing though, any kind of negative feelings I have while sitting-When is this going to end? Is my foot is falling asleep? I need to itch my nose! That is NOT living in the present moment.
In the present moment, the past does not exist, the future does not exist, only the PRESENT exists. Now, my body has no other other choice but to live in the present. When I move, when I breathe, any action I take, is done in the present moment. But our mind is often somewhere else. It is in the past, dwelling on something I forgot to do, or it’s the future, wondering when I’m going to have stable income coming in.
These thoughts are often negative and a waste of time. In the present moment, these problems simply do not exist.
This is why practice is so important, because I am sitting for however long with the sole purpose of trying to live in the present moment. It is a very simple concept to understand, but very difficult to do.
TRULY living in the present moment is an experience I believe I have had a few times, but only fleeting, in a few seconds it was gone. In that time, a great calm came over me, all of my worldly problems went away, whoo it felt great!
That, my friends, is a state of zen.
But it’s important not to practice without expectation, because then it will become harder to achieve zen. Just understand that sitting is enough. Just sitting, no matter how difficult or how frustrating, is a learning experience in and of itself, and should be viewed positively. To think otherwise would bring me further away from my intended goal.
Next time, I’ll expand a bit more on my beliefs, which as I said are a work in progress. I hope that I haven’t offended anyone by this post. As for books I have read or am reading: Essential Zen by Sekkei Harrada is what I am reading now, and I think its’ a great book. I also really enjoyed the Shunryu Suzuki biography, Crooked Cucumber.