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Out of the Waiting Rooom

In life, people tend to wait for good things to come to them. And by waiting, they miss out. Usually, what you wish for doesn’t fall in your lap; it falls somewhere nearby, and you have to recognize it, stand up, and put in the time and work it takes to get to it. This isn’t because the universe is cruel. It’s because the universe is smart. It has its own cat-string theory and knows we don’t appreciate things that fall into our laps.” – Neil Strauss

Wow, it’s been a long time since I’ve written here.

But that doesn’t mean I haven’t been making progress with my life.

Peep game.

When the summer began, I got a new job at the same company I work for. I got a significant raise and now have benefits because I was previously working as a temp. This job allows me to work 4 10-hour days so now I have Fridays off. I am very happy about this arrangement.

I have recently decided to start going out again seriously. I don’t know if you can call what I did at the beginning of the year serious or not, I don’t remember trying very hard, or necessarily doing the things that I needed to do in those situations. I really need to re-read those posts again. Lately, I have been going out Thursday-Saturday with the sole purpose of talking to women. I go to high quality venues with lots of sets to open. The club. Without my job schedule, Thursday would either not be possible, or would make Fridays 10x worse. There are all kinds of problems that I need to work on when I go out that I will correct in time. In short, I am going out reguarly, I am opening, and I am proud of that.

I am also lifting 3x a week and it feels great. There were all kinds of mental roadblocks that were preventing me before, namely the anxiety of going to a strange gym and being a weakling amongst muscleheads. One day I decided to say “fuck all that shit” and started going and haven’t looked back since. There are times when I have felt like I have could have put a better effort in, but again that will be dealt with in time.

I am also practicing driving lessons once a week with a friend. My test is in one month. My friend thought I could past the test if I were to take it tomorrow. I am also taking swimming lessons once a week.

All in all, I feel like I have been challenging myself on a regular basis. I feel like I am in charge of getting better and taking action to move in that direction, instead of just doing the same ol’ and thinking that things will happen randomly.

Here are two articles that really motivate me.

Tyler from Real Social Dynamics – On Implementing Habits

Ozzie – D.I.W.A. (Do It While Afraid)


Winning is the Only Option

Went out tonight with Hero for the first time in a long time.

For the past 10 months, I had only been to local bars and strip clubs, choosing to get fucked up rather than go places with lots of women to talk to. When I stepped into the club, it was total sensory overload-the blaring music, the ridiculous girl, the setting… I was scared shitless.

Hero opened a few sets and I winged him. I literally ran away from the first one, he stays in his sets long past the point of awkwardness, I just couldn’t take it anymore. Later, I forced myself to stick in there, coming to the conclusion, “fuck these people!” Why do I give them more value than they are worth? Why do I just assume that people are BETTER than me?

No, I didn’t open any sets on my own, but I do feel better about myself because I moved in a positive direction tonight. I had been avoiding going out like this for a long long time, and felt like something was missing from my life as a result. Would I have felt a lot better if I opened? FUCK YEAH!

But there will be a tomorrow. I can’t dwell on the past now. I need to buckle down and just start opening my mouth, something good will come out eventually. The women need me, they just don’t know it yet. I really don’t have any other options, I MUST become successful with women. My life will always feel empty if I don’t. Not saying my mindstate is anywhere near this guys, but I can understand the frustration. What is sad is that he didn’t know that he could change his situation. What is great is that I know I can.

I am going to re-state my goals tomorrow.

The Reset Button, part… I can’t forget how many times I’ve pressed it now.

“It’s been a long time, I shouldn’t have left you…” – Rakim

So I stopped doing this for… however long it’s been since my last post. I decided at that point that it just wasn’t worth my time. I considered just posting privately this blog, or writing in my journal again, but my most consistent has been right here on this blog, so here I am again.

The past few months have seen me veer off the course big time, but I don’t want to dwell on the past. I have slowly been trying to simplify my life, and just keep the most essential goals. I haven’t been going out to much lately, I prefer to sit indoors and read. In fact, I just have two goals as of right now, be more responsible with money and meditate daily. There are some other goals I will add down the line but that is it for now. I will elaborate more on them later.

I want to get to bed at a reasonable time so I am going to sign off now. Until tomorrow!